Brother Lawrence of the Resurrection
decided at eighteen years old
to make God’s love the goal
of all his actions
but he suffered for ten years
due to his preoccupation/anxiety over his sins
despite God showering him
with graces
if he was seeking God with his whole/undivided heart
he would have found God
and God’s Love
in all things:
positive and seemingly negative –
in warm sun
and in winter days
when he was healthy
and when he was cold and sick
in bread he ate
and in being hungry
in the song of birds
and in the noise of cities
in his virtue
and in his sin –
“For God hath made Christ, who knew no sin, to be sin for us
that we might be made the righteousness of God in him”
(2 Corinthians 5:21)
Brother Lawrence eventually learned
that it is acceptable in God’s sight
to be imperfect
and that we are all subject to
a Higher Law
hidden in every human heart:
that life is all about growth
and we can all evolve
out of chaos and darkness and sin
into Order and Light and Love.